Day #4 What is one thing that you are proud of, that you think lacks praise/appreciation from the people around you? It could be a simple thing;it could be a secret thing.

I think I'm good at writing stories, but nobody knows that I am because I never show them. So partially, this is my fault. Basically, I'm self conscious about what I write. Will people like what I write? Am I even good at it? I honestly don't know. I write because I like to write, and because it gives me purpose. I've started  probably over one hundred story plots and have only tried pursuing about two of them. And clearly that hasn't happened either since i'm not some famous New York Times best selling author right now or anything! I don't know how to describe it!  Writing excites me. It feels like I'm opening up my mind and creation just comes pouring out. I've been doing it since I was very young. I'll just be doing anything, everyday stuff,  and stories will just come to me. Then as soon as I can,  I sit down at my computer and write. I develop characters, create their personalities, focus on their goals, their problems, their longings, their likings, their traits, their passions,  and the plot of the story until I have  a solidified idea. Of course, most of this ends up being drabble. But all of it can be continued. I leave myself room in every "Idea", as I call them, for room to continue the story. And I wish every day of my life that I could continue them. I'm proud of them. I'm proud of my ideas and my writing. As I read more and more-- dipping into classics, sci fi, romance, adventure, tradgedy, thrill, mystery-- I practice. I use what I read to fuel my stories. I learn new words, use new approaches, work on new characters and new ways to present them. I love it. I love the creation and thrill writing gives me. I'll go back and read old Ideas, which usually include a minimum 10 pages of writing, a set up for the story and a feel for the characters, and sometimes I won't recognize it as my own. Sometimes I'm so proud of it I barely know it's mine. And sometimes I'm not satisfied at all and I think it's terrible--the writing is too simple, the characters aren't likable or believable, etc. But even then, I'm still kind of proud. I took the time to write those Ideas. I spent hours of free time devoting myself to their creation. I approached each one with passionate determination and vigor. And some of them, in my opinion, are very good. (Though my opinion isn't exactly valid on account of I'm not a literature critic who knows anything about anything when it comes to writing) But I'm still satisfied with them. How could I not be? They're a part of me and they represent me and my very own original ideas. But like I said before, no one knows about them.  It's something secretive that I'm very proud of. I don't advertise it. Until I find something that I really really think is a home run, I'll probably keep my Ideas to myself. But someday I'll write a book and then people will know. And then I'll tell them "I am proud."  That is a promise!